Saturday, January 31, 2009 @5:29 PM
School's starting tmw.
A new lease of life.
Gonna be in a new environment, with new friends, teachers.
Time passes so fast, it seems.
There are mistakes in life, one makes, and realises can never be undone.
All the screwups, all of them, just like me.
I admit, I'm a screwup, and a total one at that.
People look at me, and they'll think what a miserable person this guy is.
I dont need anyone's pity.
I dont want people helping me out, just because they feel sympathetic for me, and wanna ameliorate the like I'm having.
Is this how people get care and concern?
That its because those around him feel pity for him, thats why extending help?
I dont want to be pitied.
Whatever you've done for me since day one, have been really alot.
I'm grateful, thankful, for your magnanimous act.
And I know you're doing it, not coz you pity me, but coz it truely comes straight from your heart.
And I say, thanks.
Too many things have happened and I've more or less become what I used to be.
I dont know how to tackle barriers anymore.
I'm at a loss when something wrong happens, and I'm afraid that whatever I do, the slightest mistake, would set off a disaster.
Perhaps I'm
the disaster.
A disaster to many, to myself, to you.
I'm really sorry for the many many wrongs I've committed.
Sometimes I wish my vision would just blur, my legs lose their strength, and I would just fall to the ground, lifeless.
And in my mind, I would be saying my silent 'goodbyes' to my family, friends and all.
Sometimes I really cant take it, and I do stuff and try my best to vent whatever emotions I'm feeling, away.
But most of the times, you've been there, helping me with every step of the journey.
You are my silver lining.
You are my care and concern.
You are, love. Thanks, for you're here.
"C" is for Care, "L" is for Love, "A" is for Attitude, "I" is for I love you, "R" is for Rapture, "E" is for Enthralled.
