Friday, November 28, 2008 @8:32 PM
I say hello to the world.
Today's Dave's send-off.
He's going off to Australia, Brisbane to further his studies.
Man, we're ALL gonna miss you.
SO YOU BETTER STUDY HARD THERE AND MAKE ALL OF US PROUD!
:DDD
My first week of work's over, and I already feel drained.
But there's been you all this while, pushing me on, encouraging me on.
I thank you for that, for I am truly grateful.
Yesterday was the bbq for Dave at marcus' place.
We crapped alot, messed around.
I got wet, by tap water.
Lol.
Walked baby home after that so I guess everything was worthwhile.
Everyone let's pray for each other as we continue walking in faith in the only way our Saviour has led out for us.
See yall sometime soon.
And Dave, all the best.
time's running out.
Thursday, November 27, 2008 @6:18 AM
Hello everyone.
Haven't been blogging lately, cause of WORK. RAHHHHHH.
And I've got a papercut. ):
I walked baby home tonight.
Haha you and your cockroach-infested subway sandwich.
Christmas is coming in less then a month's time.
Time really flies.
Everything seemed fine initially, but things happened and we fell apart.
Stuff can bring us together, and break us apart.
This time, we know, what'll happen.
:DDDDDDDDDDD
Tomorrow's Dave's send-off bbq!
Man, we're all so gonna miss you.
But yea, have fun wherever you may be.
Alrightey guys, gotta go sleep for work tommorow,
see yall. :DDDDD
I OWE YOU A SHOULDER MASSAGE.
you're mine.
Monday, November 24, 2008 @4:48 AM
Today was the first day of work!
Lol thought admin work meant typing stuff for the permanent-working people.
But guess what, my friends and I went there to sort out files, LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of them. Seriously. :D
There were like, SHELVES, and we had to stack some up so high, we had to use chairs, lol.
All this while, I couldnt stop thinking of you.
Your smile, your laughter, your love.
I just so totally miss you.
And its all your fault,
yes.
Your fault. (:
The food in the company's canteen is not bad, quite nice actually.
Well, its a really good working environment, so yea.
AND YOU, last time asked you if you wanted the job.
YOU SAID NO.
NOW you're asking me if there're vacancies.
RAWR YOU.
:DDDD
I really hope there're vacancies, and you'll come.
YAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY.
Lol this is the first time I don't know what to talk about in my post.
RAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I MISS YOU SOOOOOOOOO MUCH.
Lol nvm, see yall tmw, think I'm gonna go gym after work tmw.
:DDDD
Bye!
I miss you,
I really do.
And I know you do too.
Sunday, November 23, 2008 @12:08 AM
Hey all.
A really boring sunday.
Totally did almost nothing.
Went to gramps place and played a little mahjong.
Lol, I won 3 games out of the 4 I played.
Baby's fine with me already, so I'm fine too.
Time to recuperate, recollect, restore.
I need to go swim, get fit,
think I'm getting fat soon.
Its singapore's "Grandparents' Day" today.
Here's to all the gramps out there, alive, and in heaven.
Thanks for being in our lives.
Thanks for sharing with us your wonderful past stories, your past experiences.
Thanks for giving us the countless advices and help when we're sad, when we're at a loss, everything.
On behalf of EVERYONE in the world,
I say a HUGE
"I LOVE YOU"
to all gramps out there.
Live on.
I'm sorry Dave, not able to go for your confirmation mass this morning.
But yea, hope you'll forever follow God's only way, and praise him for bringing you to this world, and worship him all the more.
For He is full of grace, and is ready to forgive even the worst sinners,
we worship you Lord.
We praise You.
Continue to guide us in our way.
Help us out in our troubles, and give us the strength, wisdom, courage, and many many more to be what we are today.
Guys, thanks for being in my life.
Thanks for all the happiness, the joys we've shared.
I'll miss yall, 4-1.
But yea, enjoy your future, and may God be with all of you.
ROCK ON.
:DDDD
Thats all folks, catch yall sometime soon.
And YOU, don't forget I owe you a leg/feet massage.
:D
Stuff may be hard to comprehend,
but let's face them together
and make things clear,
for all to see.
Friday, November 21, 2008 @5:19 PM
I look back at my life,
and I always think to myself,
It has to be ME,
ME,
ME.
16 years have gone by just like that.
time flies,
it seems,
too fast, way too fast.
Sure, there've been the happy times,
the fun times...
the sad times.
Amazing how emotions, and feelings, can destroy one.
Contrast it to life, these two can be viewed as something that inspires life, or for short, runs the life.
Emotions and feelings make people happy, angry, sad, whatever you name it.
However, people can control it, do what they seem fit.
Because its their choice to control it, and run their own lives.
They don't allow their emotions and feelings control their lives overly too much.
So tell me, why doesn't it happen to me?
Why can't I control my own freaking emotions, whatever I feel.
Everytime I look into myself, my body, my soul, my heart,
All I see is hatred, anger.
And I've always been trying to find a possible outlet for me to pour everything out on, to feel free, to BE free.
But I know I shouldn't have poured a single bit out at all,
no not even an inch of it.
Because something I've realised,
is that whatever emotions and feelings I have,
have been bottled up for many years, some even as long as 7 years.
You tell me to try controlling my emotions,
but I'm afraid!
I'm afraid of the harm I'd cause to people, to everyone,
should I try and end up pouring everything out AGAIN.
But I know I've promised you.
And I'm trying to look for the silver lining in that thick mass of clouds in the beautiful sky.
Or perhaps, looking for the hay in the needlestack, or maybe let's make it, 3 needlestacks piled up together.
What am I doing, I ask myself.
What have I done, perhaps to start with?
Just thinking about the many many people I've hurt before.
And you, even more than the rest.
I feel totally useless in bringing myself to face any challenges anymore.
These challenges have seemed to become the worst nightmare of my life.
They've seemed to become the well-known monster-in-the-closet of every child's mind.
To me, challenges are supposed to be an outlet for me to test myself, and usually, I used to come out on top.
This time, its not anybody else's fault.
Its mine.
I doubt myself, guys.
No, I don't doubt that I'm God's creation, because I'm sure that I am.
Like you've said, if I pray for the strength to continue on,
God sends me challenges.
If I pray for the wisdom for a test, God makes the test difficult.
If I pray for a smooth, steady relationship, God sends the storms, the huge tides our way.
But I want to hold you, grab hold of your hand, and tide through everything with you.
I need you to get me back to what I was before.
Like I've said, and probably what you've said too, its difficult.
But there's no harm trying isn't it?
Just, stay with me, by my side.
Let me feel your presence.
Then I'll be reminded of whatever you've promised me.
And yes, you ARE that silver lining in my life that I've always been looking out for, that I've always wanted to grab hold of.
The journey there is tough, extremely tough, but I'll bear it for you no matter what.
And, don't think that I'm doing this because of you.
I'm doing this,
because of us.
I love you.
I hope for you,
Wish for you.
@1:55 AM
Hello? Anyone there?
Someone answer me?!
Its like, where did everyone go to.
I'm alive! And nobody cares.
Fine! Fine.
Haha
My blog is finally up guys, so do whatever you want with it.
I know someone's gonna spam my tagboard!
(and i'm so gonna spam yours back)
Today's a BORING day. I totally slacked at home, RAWR.
Watched tv, SLACKED, went online, SLACKED.
CREATED THIS BLOG, YAY.
YAYABADALAMA, lol random.
COME ON PEOPLE, ASK ME OUT OR STH.
YOU KNOW YOU WANT TO, HAHA. DONT LEAVE ME TO ROT AT HOME.
But, you know i neeeeeeeeeddd you the most, and you know who you are.
Till tomorrow then, see yall everyone, and don't forget to spam my tagboard.
:D
even if things don't seem fine,
you know that you've always got me.
let's change everything,
for the better.
I'm here for you,
always.
