HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! :D
Man, korea was super cold.
I celebrated New Year's twice this year, since korea's time is one hour ahead of singapore's.
Man, korea was super cold.
I celebrated New Year's twice this year, since korea's time is one hour ahead of singapore's.
Rahh, being back in singapore makes me wanna go back to korea, because you dont sweat there, since its still winter.
I tried uploading the pics, but man, were they slow or what.
I tried uploading the pics, but man, were they slow or what.
Guess I've got too many pics.
Just looked through my cam's memory card.
Just looked through my cam's memory card.
Gosh we took over 600 pics in 8 days.
I really enjoyed korea.
Especially the bus trips, cos they allowed me to plug my earphones in and rekindle my special someone in my mind.
We went to jeju island, headed over to this mountain where the 'Da Chang Jin' show was filmed. Checked out the flower and orange fields, they were really brilliant.
Rode on horses! Really cool. Lovely animals.
Hmmm, what else.
Went diving into the sea in a submarine to check out the schools of fishes and corals.
The food there was really boring, haha.
Especially the bus trips, cos they allowed me to plug my earphones in and rekindle my special someone in my mind.
We went to jeju island, headed over to this mountain where the 'Da Chang Jin' show was filmed. Checked out the flower and orange fields, they were really brilliant.
Rode on horses! Really cool. Lovely animals.
Hmmm, what else.
Went diving into the sea in a submarine to check out the schools of fishes and corals.
The food there was really boring, haha.
Coz its like, mostly steamboats everytime, or bbq meat.
Went to Mount Seorak, where we took lotsa pics of the landscapes and sceneries.
The winds there were so strong they made me struggle to catch my balance. Seriously.
When time permitted, I was never sleeping.
Instead, I was thinking about stuff and everything.
Went to Mount Seorak, where we took lotsa pics of the landscapes and sceneries.
The winds there were so strong they made me struggle to catch my balance. Seriously.
When time permitted, I was never sleeping.
Instead, I was thinking about stuff and everything.
What can I do to give you a better life, a better future?
How can I help you push aside your problems?
What can I do, what should I do, to make it to your side? Let you accept me, and so you won't face everything on your own?
It hurts me to see you like this whenever you're down.
What can I do, what should I do, to make it to your side? Let you accept me, and so you won't face everything on your own?
It hurts me to see you like this whenever you're down.
I know you can get happy easier and faster than me, but I still worry for you.
I care for you.
Its hurts me.
I know whatever I'm saying is just so..
IRONIC.
CONTRADICTORY.
Okay why am I digressing from the main topic of this post.
Ohwell, korea was just absolutely awesome.
The guides were great and amiable, and the people in my group were kinda fun too.
And OH YEA, my group had 2 girls cheng howe! Yours had none, muahaha. :D
Claire, don't get jealous. We just made friends, nothing else kay? (:
Well I know you wont anw.
We went shopping, and I bought two shirts there. Kinda nice I guess, but since it was winter in korea, every shop was selling winter clothing! ):
ATTENTION ALL TEDDYBEAR LOVERS.
I went to the teddybear museum!
They've got all kinds of teddybears there.
One was of Mona Lisa, another of King Alexander.
There was even one of Gandhi! :D
Ate lotsa kimchi man, think I'm sick of it.
But at least I had authentic kimchi.
CONTRADICTORY.
Okay why am I digressing from the main topic of this post.
Ohwell, korea was just absolutely awesome.
The guides were great and amiable, and the people in my group were kinda fun too.
And OH YEA, my group had 2 girls cheng howe! Yours had none, muahaha. :D
Claire, don't get jealous. We just made friends, nothing else kay? (:
Well I know you wont anw.
We went shopping, and I bought two shirts there. Kinda nice I guess, but since it was winter in korea, every shop was selling winter clothing! ):
ATTENTION ALL TEDDYBEAR LOVERS.
I went to the teddybear museum!
They've got all kinds of teddybears there.
One was of Mona Lisa, another of King Alexander.
There was even one of Gandhi! :D
Ate lotsa kimchi man, think I'm sick of it.
But at least I had authentic kimchi.
Oh and I learnt how to make kimchi, super tedious, heh.
The sceneries there was just really great, indescribable.
So many things happened in the 8 days, I cant remember all.
If I remember somemore, shall include them in my next post and so on.
Sorry guys.
And you, I missed you terribly.
So many things happened in the 8 days, I cant remember all.
If I remember somemore, shall include them in my next post and so on.
Sorry guys.
And you, I missed you terribly.
Whatever you wanna do, to, with me now, I wanna just reciprocate in the very same way.
I love you.
And, happy new year.
cheers
cheers
Tonight's the night I'm leaving for Korea, Seoul.
Sooooo gonna miss you guys.
Stuff happened last night, while I was out playing night badminton with Claire and Aaron.
But I'm alright now.
Cos I've promised someone I'll be strong.
Its Christmas Eve guys.
Its Christmas Eve guys.
One more day to Christmas Day.
I'm psyched about it, even though I'm not spending it in Singapore with you guys.
But rest assured! I'll be coming back with lotsa korean stuff and really really REALLY nice pictures for all of yall to see kay!
My wishes for Christmas, or perhaps New Year's resolutions this year is :
1: For myself to become a stronger person and not succumb to threats and breakdowns that easily anymore.
2: For myself to become a more caring person, someone more loving than this year. I want to show more care and concern to everyone out there who has been a help to me this year, and have helped me go through my emotional problems and distress. Spread more love to everyone.
3: To be a better son to my parents, and not try to let them down.
4: To do well in my studies and not get totally distracted.
Well, it certainly seems to be lotsa wishes, but I really hafta say them.
5: To say stuff and mean them.
6: To let someone into my life.
Someone has always been here for me throughout my journey this year.
She has shown me boundless love, and everything she does always reflects her love for me.
My wishes for Christmas, or perhaps New Year's resolutions this year is :
1: For myself to become a stronger person and not succumb to threats and breakdowns that easily anymore.
2: For myself to become a more caring person, someone more loving than this year. I want to show more care and concern to everyone out there who has been a help to me this year, and have helped me go through my emotional problems and distress. Spread more love to everyone.
3: To be a better son to my parents, and not try to let them down.
4: To do well in my studies and not get totally distracted.
Well, it certainly seems to be lotsa wishes, but I really hafta say them.
5: To say stuff and mean them.
6: To let someone into my life.
Someone has always been here for me throughout my journey this year.
She has shown me boundless love, and everything she does always reflects her love for me.
Everything she has done, is like a ray of shining light, helping me out in my way around the dark tunnel.
And to you guys, thanks for having been here when I need help.
And to you guys, thanks for having been here when I need help.
Gonna name a few who've been there occasionally and know most of my problems.
To Cheng Howe, for being a best friend in every way. For helping me with my relationship problems, and listening out to me when I REALLY REALLY needed an attentive listening ear. You must learn to let go when it is the time for you to. Time heals. Be forgiving and be happy.
To Jonathan Tan (Jonny) , for just always being that jackass, for making us laugh with your never-ending jokes and wit. Joke on, not rock on, jonny.
To Richie, though I just talked more to you ever since we started work, you kinda have been a great friend. Go dedicate one month to your basketball!
To Ding Liang, for being that WHITE shiny guy with that comical face. Thanks. My message for you, a brother and a great friend. Absolutely wonderful.
To Zi Hui, thanks for being here this first half of the year! :D
To Claire, for being here for ALL (really) my emotional problems, actually just ALL my problems. You, continue to shine, for thats what you're meant to do in your life. Continue to shine out to many many other people and touch them with your love.
To Daryl, thanks for having been here for a few of my problems. Personal message to you, be SSSTRRRRRRRRROOOOOONGGGGGGGGGGG. :D
To Cheng Howe, for being a best friend in every way. For helping me with my relationship problems, and listening out to me when I REALLY REALLY needed an attentive listening ear. You must learn to let go when it is the time for you to. Time heals. Be forgiving and be happy.
To Jonathan Tan (Jonny) , for just always being that jackass, for making us laugh with your never-ending jokes and wit. Joke on, not rock on, jonny.
To Richie, though I just talked more to you ever since we started work, you kinda have been a great friend. Go dedicate one month to your basketball!
To Ding Liang, for being that WHITE shiny guy with that comical face. Thanks. My message for you, a brother and a great friend. Absolutely wonderful.
To Zi Hui, thanks for being here this first half of the year! :D
To Claire, for being here for ALL (really) my emotional problems, actually just ALL my problems. You, continue to shine, for thats what you're meant to do in your life. Continue to shine out to many many other people and touch them with your love.
To Daryl, thanks for having been here for a few of my problems. Personal message to you, be SSSTRRRRRRRRROOOOOONGGGGGGGGGGG. :D
To my parents, for not giving up on me on so many occasions, for giving me so many chances to redeem myself time and time again. You've deifinitely touched my life in a great way.
To my two brothers, though you both are irritating and nonsensical at most times, I still love you both and I'm happy for everything we have together.
To my grandparents, for just being alive, and still able to listen to my problems and help me out with them. Even though sometimes you both couldnt help, I appreciate your effort. I love you both.
To everyone else whom I know but did not mention, it doesnt mean I dont love you, or that you dont make impacts in my life. Thank you all, for just being my friend, for just, accepting me.
To those whose lives I've touched, thanks for having letting me into your lives.
Thanks for being the very special people in my life. You guys are unique in your own special way.
I say goodbye to this year, with this last day in Singapore.
But I'm sure, next year will be more exciting, and I'm going to touch even more lives than before. Just like how the usual people are gonna touch mine when I'm down and everything.
Thanks for everything, the people I know. I know you're thanking me too, so here I am saying a HUGE 'THANK YOU' to all of you. God bless and live strong.
goodbye 2008, hello 2009.
merry christmas
goodbye 2008, hello 2009.
merry christmas
3 days before I Leave for Korea man.
URGH, gonna miss you guys.
But EH, why do I keep talking about going to korea and not seeing all of yall?
RAHHH, but I know I'm deifnitely gonna miss you.
ALOT ALOT ALOT.
And when I get back, all I know is that I wanna hug you.
I think I'm weird.
I get weird thoughts.
I see weird stuff.
I'M WEIRD.
Tomorrow's another day for work, and bet I'm gonna experience monday blues again.
I'M WEIRD.
Tomorrow's another day for work, and bet I'm gonna experience monday blues again.
But at least Cheng's coming back to work!
He got back last week, not sure friday or saturday.
And he's gonna gimme tips and advice on what to bring and stuff.
At least I know there're lotsa things to buy over there!
Sending me off anyone?
Sending me off anyone?
Well I bet nobody is.
Cos I just know. :DDDDDDD
Man I'm bored.
Spent both saturday and sunday like usual, at home and bored, doing nth.
I'm sorry I couldnt go.
Man I'm bored.
Spent both saturday and sunday like usual, at home and bored, doing nth.
I'm sorry I couldnt go.
Its not as if I dont want to.
But I know there's nothing I can do to change whatever you think.
Everyone's mindsets towards certain things.
What someone thinks of you, feels about you, is perhaps or most likely, based on past experiences and whatever.
What someone thinks of you, feels about you, is perhaps or most likely, based on past experiences and whatever.
Its really hard for one to change the mindsets people have of him or her.
So sometimes I just let things go its way.
But I am trying to fight for what I deserve.
So sometimes I just let things go its way.
But I am trying to fight for what I deserve.
I dont want people to treat me like a pushover.
I dont want to be bullied.
I am NOT useless.
Just watch me.
One day, I'll prove all of you wrong.
One day, I'll prove all of you wrong.
Make all of you know what I can do, what I am capable of.
I am determined, to create a mark in this world.
A mark that'll last.
watch me.
A mark that'll last.
watch me.
Hello everyone, sorry for this late update.
Been super busy with work everyday.
WE HAD A CATERED LUNCH TODAY!
All thanks to the wonderful heads we have in our department.
Took pictures but with colleague's camera, shall post the pictures when I get them from him online kay?
Everything's been pretty hectic.
Everything's been pretty hectic.
And I keep remembering that I'll miss xmas and new year's.
For christmas, I'm spending it either in the airport, or in the plane.
MAN.
For new year's, I'm spending it in the plane back to singapore.
DOUBLE MAN.
The thought of not being able to spend christmas with you guys, not being able to coutdown with you guys.
Not being able to attend all the wonderful parties.
Not being able to wish yall MERRY CHRISTMAS, HAPPY NEW YEAR.
But its alright.
I can watch the snow fall down as I think of all the love you guys have all shown for me.
And, I would like to shout out to Daryl.
And, I would like to shout out to Daryl.
Its alright.
We've got you from here on.
Come to us should you feel alone, or anything.
Always.
One's journey in life is never done, never achieved, alone.
Friends are the ones who will always be there for you.
Never ending is their support for you.
Remember.
snowflakes.
snowflakes.
Had another day of work yesterday, but I went watching 'the day the earth stood still' with BEST FRIEND, CLAIRE AIMEE JIN YI FRANCIS.
Guess it was alright, and heh! I'm not that bad as to describe the entire show and spoil it for you guys. THANK ME.
Oh yea then we went over to TOASTBOX to slack and talk.
Had someone's recommended unique, special food.
AND YES, thank you for introducing it to me. HAHA.
OH and we bought like, a bowl of mee siam, a plate of peanut butter on bread-cubes, and 2 soft-boiled eggs.
Someone kept complaining about being instilled to not eat that many eggs.
In the end, think we only finished the mee siam and ate a few cubes.
RAHH YOU, I TOOK OUT THE PEANUT BUTTER FOR YOU YET YOU DIDNT FINISH THE WHOLE CUBE! HAD HALF ONLY SOMEMORE!
You ungrateful girl, ungrateful best friend, watch out. ( muahahaha )
Well this was whats left of the dinner-supper.
Guess it was alright, and heh! I'm not that bad as to describe the entire show and spoil it for you guys. THANK ME.
Oh yea then we went over to TOASTBOX to slack and talk.
Had someone's recommended unique, special food.
AND YES, thank you for introducing it to me. HAHA.
OH and we bought like, a bowl of mee siam, a plate of peanut butter on bread-cubes, and 2 soft-boiled eggs.
Someone kept complaining about being instilled to not eat that many eggs.
In the end, think we only finished the mee siam and ate a few cubes.
RAHH YOU, I TOOK OUT THE PEANUT BUTTER FOR YOU YET YOU DIDNT FINISH THE WHOLE CUBE! HAD HALF ONLY SOMEMORE!
You ungrateful girl, ungrateful best friend, watch out. ( muahahaha )
Well this was whats left of the dinner-supper.
And that plate of eggs? We named it the 'only-for-display' eggs. Since we didnt eat them at all, and who would eat them when they turn cold anyway.
Well I made an important discovery yesterday too, that sony ericsson phones totally dislike Claire. They always auto restart or shut-off or get really laggy whenever she uses it.
DONT SAY ITS UNTRUE YOU! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
Here's Claire feeling so attracted by one of the guys working at toastbox, she took his picture.
Okay well she took pretty random shots of me too but I guess nobody wants to see it, and I wouldnt want to post them up anyway, since I looked really funny in the pictures.
Life's been pretty hectic for me, but I'm totally fine with the way things are going right now, aren't you too?
You know I'll wait, I always do.
The way I see it, everything's gonna be just fine, and we shouldn't worry too much.
Let's just let life continue the way it is, and before you know it, we'd have crossed the finish line, together.
Look, its my best friend. And yes you cant get taller than me. :DDDDDDDDDDDD
memories.
Look, its my best friend. And yes you cant get taller than me. :DDDDDDDDDDDD
memories.
I'm broken, cant go for the confirmation mass tmw.
Why must such stuff happen to me, I've disappointed people for countless numbers of times.
Yet I'm still doing it again.
Why must such stuff happen to me, I've disappointed people for countless numbers of times.
Yet I'm still doing it again.
I didnt choose this path, but more like the path willed itself in my way.
I'm a puppet, forever walking straight. People choose my directions, my destination, my future.
Where're my virtues, one might ask.
Well I've got none.
I search deep into myself, and empty void, rid of all feelings.
I search deep into myself, and empty void, rid of all feelings.
All, except two tyrant feelings.
SADNESS.
ANGER.
I ask myself, why do such stuff always happen to me?
I ask myself, why do such stuff always happen to me?
Am I really supposed to live this kind of life, till the day I'm on my deathbed, ready to rise into heaven and join Our Wonderful Saviour God?
But then again, I remind myself of what I've promised to you, and to the others who knows my plight.
I WILL BE HAPPIER, BECAUSE I'VE PROMISED, BECAUSE I WANT TO.
I DONT WANT TO LIVE A LIFE OF ENDLESS DESPAIR.
I WANT TO BREAK FREE FROM ITS CLUTCHES.
RID OF MY BAD POINTS, MY SADNESS, MY ANGER, SHALL I FLY FREE AND ACCEPT WHAT I SHOULD BE.
RID OF MY BAD POINTS, MY SADNESS, MY ANGER, SHALL I FLY FREE AND ACCEPT WHAT I SHOULD BE.
I WILL SUCCEED.
WATCH ME.
shattered.
shattered.
Guys! Its been awhile since I last published a post.
Been working like mad this week, I got sick! D:
But ohwell, had my best friend's yummy soup and instanteously got better, except for those nasty headaches here and there.
And I got a new phone! And feeling bad about it.
AND YES IM GONNA SHOVE IT IN HER FACE. Lets just hope she wouldnt kill me for doing that.
Hmmm, What shall I get for xmas for you guys? I'm thinking. Really hard. (:
I know, perhaps just spread my love more! ( CHEAPSKATE :DDDDDDDDDDDD )
But I dunno, think when I'm over in korea then I'll decide what to buy for you guys.
But I dunno, think when I'm over in korea then I'll decide what to buy for you guys.
KOREAN PRESENTS KAY?! MUST APPRECIATE THEM. :D
Confirmation mass' tmw! But I'm not sure if I can go, RAHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Confirmation mass' tmw! But I'm not sure if I can go, RAHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Think my parents' bringing the family to my uncle's place for dinner and for me to get my winter jacket from my cousin, heard them talking about it.
BUT I WANNA GO FOR CONFIRMATION MASS!!!!
Urgh, we'll see how things go.
Just hope they'll turn out right, then indirectly everything'll turn out right.
Its back to seacrhing through the files and sorting through dusty papers on monday.
Its back to seacrhing through the files and sorting through dusty papers on monday.
At least I'll be with my friends.
I dont know what to say anymore, so bye guys, see yall sometime round.
thank you.
thank you.
The movie's called off! ):
Cause, Jonny didnt like watching scary movies, and richie didnt want to feel bad but leaving jonny alone to go home by himself.
Whats more, NOW I'm feeling bad.
We're supposed to send Cheng off today, since he's flying off to Korea tomorrow.
But its alright, we'll see you when you get back in 1 week time Cheng!
By then I would be in Korea. :DDDDD
More than a week more to Christmas!
More than a week more to Christmas!
The christmas mood's here already.
Man I missed Christmas.
I WANT WINTER!
Gonna get to see snowflakes for the first time.
Oh yea, my BEST FRIEND gave me soup today cause I'm sick.
Gonna get to see snowflakes for the first time.
Oh yea, my BEST FRIEND gave me soup today cause I'm sick.
Finished EVERY drop of it.
Thanks BEST FRIEND, for caring for me, for being so thoughful, so sweet.
I LOVE YOU.
countdown.
countdown.
Work's been tiring me out, think I'm going out with cheng and the rest, WITH miss chow to watch quarantine after work, provided she agrees. SO MISS CHOW QUICKLY REPLY MY TEXT!
Best friends are always there for you no matter what.
Best friends are always there for you no matter what.
They care for you in a certain way, different from the rest.
They know how you feel regarding certain situations.
They know when to let you loose, when to totally stop you.
They, are SIMPLY THE BEST.
Thanks all besties, for shedding light to my world.
You guys are the music in my head, the lights at the end of the tunnel.
Its a great tough challenge, but I know I'll survive, I'll brave it out.
I'm willing to try.
And I know I'll succeed.
Yea I know, 715, and its counting down.
Yea I know, 715, and its counting down.
Sure thing, you get all the points, I have no need for them.
Because all i ever want, and need, is YOU.
You know that too.
And why hurt?
I'm here for you alright.
Release your dreadful burdens on me.
Let me share them with you.
I dont find you a bother, because I CARE, ALOT.
ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT. REALLY.
Keep that in mind kay?
Keep that in mind kay?
Patience goes a really long way, and I'm counting down to the day.
I'm waiting.
I'm waiting.
We're only 16, there's a long way ahead of us.
Though it seems far, I know we'll make it if we hold hands and face everything together.
2 years, 730 and a half days, till you're mine again.
Its alright, I'm not fretting, I'm not complaining.
This has probably got to be the toughest and largest challenge in my life.
Obsessed by love? I think not.
I'm just willing, to wait for that someone special in my life.
And, I know its you.
You probably feel the same way too.
We'll wait together.
Time'll pass very quickly, and before you know it, we're 18, and back together once more.
In my heart, you've always been my one and only, and in my heart, nobody else can take away that spot which you stand so firmly on.
You've made me feel love, allowed for me to feel love, love that I never thought I could ever feel in my life, ever get in my life.
Thank you for everything.
My sixteenth year of life, great wonderful life, has not been of waste.
I love you.
together, we'll make it.
together, we'll make it.
22 days to Christmas.
343 and a quarter days from this year's flown by just like that.
This few days, I've been feeling all emotional.
Drained psychologically, emotionally, mentally, and physically, I feel at a loss.
I'm getting mood swings at unwanted times, such as when everyone's joking together.
I go all quiet and keep to myself for a few moments.
Everytime this happens, I'm reminding myself in my mind, no matter how unhappy I am, or am going to be, I had to just look for the little spark of happiness in me, make it grow, make it flare.
All I had to do was to fan it, gently at times, violently at times.
And I know, that spark WILL burn in me.
It will burn in me oh-so brightly, it will engulf me.
It will mesmerise me, take me in.
It will be so inspirational, so influential, others shall be affected by me and be happy too.
Actually, I think I've just found my christmas wish for everybody in the world.
Happiness.
No more disputes, arguments.
With happiness, peace prevails.
And, with peace, everything shall going along fine and well, and everybody can live better lives.
Those in war-torn countries shall be able to experience true happiness, when war ends and they can all live normal, peaceful lives, not those of fear that they might get blown up or killed in a gun battle at any time of the day.
Peace on earth, happiness to all, goodwill to all man.
Wonderful Saviour, guide me in my way to at least attain, achieve, part of my christmas wish.
Let everybody be enlightened of Your love, of Your grace.
Spread Your love to every corner in the world, light up everybody's lives.
Let them feel Your presence Lord, feel Your love.
And one by one, they'll love You all back, in the same way as You've loved them.
We raise our praises to You, our worship.
Grant happiness to man.
Amen.
Amen.
God has granted me the patience,
and has given me the challenge of waiting for you.
You are mine.
