I'm torn, shattered.

Whats wrong with my life, I wonder.

Didnt take me long to realise the answer.

Perhaps, I'm just too lousy at saying 'no'?


Am I really just supposed to be a robot? Listening to their EVERY command?

Maybe I just give up too easily, and give in to everyone's demands and everything.

But I really dont know what to do anymore.

Should I just throw in the towel and walk away?

However, like someone told me, its just 2 years.

So I will bear with it, and give in to their

insatiable

demands.

I have never felt so brought down, so sad, angry, and filled with hatred in my life.

So much, I couldnt even stop myself from shaking.

And seriously, at that point and moment in time, I really wanted to go to the kitchen,

grab a knife and stab someone.

Stab and stab, and rid his or her body of all the blood, all the significance of life.

But then again, I think to myself.

Why am I thinking this way? Whats happening to me?

Am I turning into some mental whacko? Some unstoppable monster on a rampage?

And I'm really sorry Claire, for all those really crazy texts. I couldnt control myself at all.

Laughing to myself like everything's a sick-ass game, like I'm on cloud nine.


What should I do?

I really dont know anymore.

Everything seems like a possible risk, a possible way to die.

Oh Lord, are these really the many challenges you're giving me?

I dont want to hurt anymore people.

I dont want to get anyone else affected.

I'm not worth it.

Am I ever gonna learn to fly?

I think hard, but the answer seems obvious.

I can try.





tell me all your thoughts of God.

JORDAN
Is bored.
Wants to achieve more.
Wants chocolates.
Wants more chocolates.
Wishes, for something impossible.
Is asking for nothing more because he's contented with his current life, except, to know more about God and His Way.


Ai Hui.
Amanda Soh.
Belicia.
Celina.
Cheng Howe.
Cheryl Tay.
Claire.
Clara.
Darren Goh.
Ding Liang.
Elvyin.
Erica.
Gamaliel.
Germaine GERM.
Harry.
Hwee Teng.
Hui Ting.
Jaw Kien Ann.
Jervis.
Jing Hui.
Jingru.
JJ Economics.
Jonny.
Jun Cen.
Lecia.
Louisa Tan.
Louise.
Mel.
Ming Shuang.
Miss Chow.
Nuan Qi.
Rosslynn.
Sara.
Thalia.
Wai Ping.
Wei Kok.
Weileng.
Xing Yi.
Yeok Rui.
Yi Hua.

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